thoughts on depression

i was talking to a viewer the other day and he asked me what was my thoughts on depression. being a person who has suffered from it for my years of my life. i think i know alot about it and how to break its grasp over yourself. i will say that depression is a normal feeling that everyone will feel at some point in time in their life. weather its when you are young or when you get older. its just a basic fact that life happens and not all things in life are worth smiling over. some things can be very traumatizing and others could be uplifting.

the official definition of depression is  Depression may be described as feeling sad, blue, unhappy, miserable, or down in the dumps. Most of us feel this way at one time or another for short periods.


webster defines it as  a state of feeling sad: a serious medical condition in which a person feels very sad, hopeless, and unimportant and often is unable to live in a normal way
: a period of time in which there is little economic activity and many people do not have jobs


now personally i have felt depression in my areas of my life. as i feel i am always able to conquer any challenge. there has been many times in my life when i could not. there has been relationships that i have also felt i could of handled better. there has been life lessons that i was forced to learn due to my hardheadedness. all in all everything i believe happens for a reason. alot of these tragedies happened and as much as they hurt over time i pulled myself out of the dumps.

depression and breaking habits i believe are kinda in the same boat. when depressed you hurt yourself weather its by putting your own self esteem down, over eating/ emotionally eating or physically. the same can be said of bad habits weather it is smoking, over working or just biting your finger nails at the table.  you first have to come to a realization that what your doing is hurting you or affecting others. then you have to accept that you want to change. only when you accept that you want to change will you then have the will to want to change or to actually change.

i dont want to sound as a drone or like im superior to anyone since i know these things about myself and life. since right now im persoanlly going through both. i just broke out a relationship and im pretty sad but i know now is the time to pick myself up not loath in my sadness. this blog is an avenue for me to express myself and get out those tied down emotions out of myself. now for the habits i usually smoke after i eat breakfast. instead im here blogging and looking for things to enlighten my mind and keep myself productive. im again not saying that i should be looked up to or followed my path will not necessarily be the right path for you. i just want to share my experience and thoughts on it for anyone thinking of depression or feeling depressed.

i want to work in exercising into my workout once i get off work. i have a few yoga games on my wii that have been getting dusty.  i also think that you should find time for the word or at least prayer. for any problem you have you can always take to the lord in prayer.


on a side note i know depressions and bad habits can lead to thoughts of suicide. before i end this blog i would like to share a story. over the course of my life i have entertained that thought many times and even tried to go through with it many times. two or three weeks ago i was taking the train home. then all of a sudden we felt a bump on the train and it stopped. we sat on the train for like 10 mins before the conductor made us walk to the front of the train to get out. once we got off the train we found out a lady had jumped in front of the train. needless to say it killed her. now i have seen alot of death in my life but i could not bring myself to see her body under the train. which now im happy to not have that image branded into my mind. skipping forward i told my family what happened and even without knowing the woman they felt so sad for her. they also began praying for her family. some how that feeling of lose transferred to my sister, why????? i have no clue....... yet she felt the need to excessively tell me she loves me and would miss me if anything like that ever happened.


i say all of this not for your pity or for admiration but because never before in my life had i felt such a sense of love. it hurt me to think how selfish i would be to take my own life. it hurt to actually see how people would be affected. most of my life i had the view that life goes on ppl will be sad for a time but then they get over it. this woman jumping and my families reaction awoke a realization in me. people can get depressed from other people you can be contagious with your grief.this realization has made me want to do more in my life. it has given me a sense of purpose. a sense of self determination that i was lacking for a while.



well to my fan or favorite stan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hope my thoughts were helpful. i hope that in the future we can all make huge steps to end depression and drop suicide rates in america

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