no love

you searched your heart
to find love and longing
not there so what was?
regret and shame
im just pondering my brain

i search my brain and ease the pain
who wants a man that so emotional
i feed myself those lines
time after time
who wants someone
that wants to be together forever
but cant handle a month

i know my heart and i know yours
through the love of god and time
things will be fine
your a perfect girl
im just a horrible guy
with low esteem and loves to deep

i scared you away and im to blame
self control was suppose to be my name
now look im to blame
i lacked and i lost
but my heart won't bust
its growing stronger and stronger

even though you wont speak no words
i can feel your tears
i can feel your fears
i am feeling you thinking of me as i think of you
at least i hope
cause i cant believe your honest words

or maybe im insane
maybe you never thought of me
maybe i am just all for you
your poetic word are like codes
im trying to decipher
but were always lost in translation
i have more questions then before
but now is the time for control