Breath of fresh air

The rooms been cramped
Depression and fear seeped through
Filling it up slowly
Like water in a sinking ship
There is where I sit
Quietly waiting for my demise

A guest that shouldn't of stayed
Now holds the door open
Letting in all the suns rays
I'm hesitant to make moves
Yet her smile soothes me
I can't afford to lose
Is this the right move?

For so long I've been alone
Is it time for me to atone my sins
No this is where I'll stay
These four walls shield me
From the hurt and the pain
From the insane and mundane

Her love and affection
Must be a trick
It seems like an addiction
She cooks and cleans
Her head game is so mean
It must be in a dream
This has to be a scheme
I wanna see the real thing

It's been too long
Since I've felt these things
My stomach is in knots
I'm trying to guess this plot
I really don't want it to stop
As she rides on top
Screaming please don't stop

I'll do whatever it takes
To make sure
Her heart doesn't break
Since there's so much at stake
Another night were both up late
Contemplating if this is all fate
Excited to see each other when we wake
Watching all the others
Now I finally can relate

I don't wanna hurt you
I've been known as la peste negra
Leaving nothing but
destruction in my wake
I'm holding back for your sake
You deserve more than
The usual fate
Of all the women to cross my path
There no need to elaborate
I'd rather celebrate
The New love in bloom
Before all the terror looms