Listening to Yodo

I accepted the fear
Fell into the depths of despair
For a love that wasn't there
And wouldn't appear
Even in my times of need
She is done with me
I'm forcing myself to sleep
Cause I really can't eat

Fear leads to the dark side
I thought I was ready for the ride
Fear leads to anger
Which appeared when I felt abandoned
Anger leads to hate
My heart has hardened to the world
I hardly smile anymore
Even though I got a girl I adore

We pushing year four
I'm back sleeping on the floor
Cold wind blows through the door
I should of asked God for more
My heart ain't right
My mind plays tricks on me
I'm talking to people
Who ain't there
Chasing the power
To bring balance to the force

How could I run you away?
I begged you to stay
Never seeing the betrayal
Which was all in my mind
It's too late though
To turn back time
The demons lied to me
Money and drugs
Ain't make me any stronger
They just made me last longer
Turned me into a whore-monger

I started switching my freaks
Like I was switching my sheets
Watching every skirt pleet
Pretending to be meek
Talking like a religious shik
Using the word for my perversions
I had no shame in my game
Hurt people hurt people
That's the only way I can explain
My own rationalization for justification

Dark days turned to dark years
Pills and potions
Kept me under the Sith lords spell
I killed those closet to me
In order to attain we again
Years later and I haven't called his bluff
I've acquired allot of stuff
Money power and respect
But what's all that without
A life you can accept