Reflections

I hit her with

I know you got someone there

I'm a vampire you know

I can’t come in

Unless you welcome me in

It's three am and you've been on my brain

Not tonight and the door closes in my face

As the rain hit my head

I was just thinking about your head

What happened too your bed being cold

Was I too late to warm it up?

What does he have that I don’t?

Things seemed fine a week ago

Now I’m driving away thinking about

That annoyed smug face

Of all the things it was the worst case

I thought we were going to get a roman pace

Somewhere far in an interstellar space

Now we have an ironical antitrust case

Now I’m moving to a new place

My heart now feels displaced

I didn't know it was a foot race

Am I so easily replaced?

You kept telling me

Its yours its yours it’s yours

Late nights between the sheets

So loud the neighbors know my government

Was it not the best pillow talk?

Going to the bathroom felt like a space walk

I'm still pissing hard as a rock

Ready to put your pussy back in a hemlock

For you I tried to enable my heart block

The emotions I’ve showed

Were never good enough

We stress about the future so much

We’ve lost track of the present

Even the simple things matter

Something so delicate can easily shatter

Like food on a split plate

Lets cut all the Chitter Chatter

And get to the state of matter

Enjoying each others warm embrace matters

We could     become antimatter

We could transcend from our humans forms

With our heads together

If I had a mirror you would me my reflection

Since I’ve met you my heart had a tainted infection

I’ve tried to put your whole life under inspection

You gave me a change of direction

Looked past all my imperfections

And made certain too

Give me a new sense of direction

She is not you but she feels right enough

If you cant love the one you want

Love the one you with

As clique as it sounds

I give it to her

Every night I miss her

So I substitute it with 

Fellatio and feet rubs

Three a.m. facials and showers in the tub

Just how I want and need

I traded the drugs and booze

For a lust of flesh and bad news

I care for her deeply but

She can’t tell the difference between

Me and him

All I get accused of is

Having groupie hoes and thot’s

It’s funny how a singularity can turn into plurality

I take it all in like I shot it in my veins

The sleepless nights and migraines

Writing and Reading

Sleeping and Eating

Fucking and Pleading

Reading and Fapping

Shagging and Spirit Rapping

Praying and Disobeying

So much research I’m going insane

All our words are so malicious

Each word spoken to strike a nerve

We haven't even got our hors d'oeuvres yet

So you think the waitress is cute huh??

Now days I’m never alone

Which ironically leaves me always alone?

Nights I wish I had stayed blown

Working my program I let it be known

Because my disease has a bad memory

It speaks to me usually when I’m on my own

The irony

No matter how much recovery you get

You never actually really recover

dont wait for me baby
my father called men
like me rolling stones
when the wind blows i get rolling