Unloading

Releasing my soul
Through this pen
Onto this paper
Is it enough to force a smile
Nope
It's just a way to unload
The aches of my soul
An illogical way to mend a broken heart
No doctor knot can close it
No lump sum can't fix it
It's close enough to a handicap
But far from as severe
Life goes on and on
Soon I'll go crazy like pac
Walking around like a caged animal
Watching everyone watching me
I see the words
But can't hear the beat
Broken like a toy after Christmas
Put into the tub
never too be seen again
Desperation isn't sexy
Depression is even more toxic
Self loathing gets you no where
So unloading on this page
Seems the only out