To much drake

Albums are being played
I really can't stay here no more
I wanna leave and be gone
But I'm tired of running
I've been facing my issues
Dancing with the bulls horns

I was wrong I came back
For your smile
I came back for our conversations
I came back to look into your eyes
One more
If only I knew what it would cost

I'm back on upper and downers
Liquor and hallucinogens
One prayer away from
Dying like Jimmy Hendrix
While Thoughts of gold are
Floating through my head
As I float away from the pain
The ideas of love and peace

I came for my wife
But would of accepted a friend
Once again
Hank Moody leaves empty handed

I was too vulnerable
I was too open
I just wanted to make things right
Have a moment of clarity
No rushed sessions
A time that was for me
With an open mind and heart

I'm usually suicidal
When I go through it
Depression deeper than the Amazon
A rope in my lap and knife in my hand
Carving my will in a tree branch
Now those are childish selfish thoughts
I can stand on my own
I can sleep in the bed I made

Now I'm sitting in a dark room
Singing loves songs to myself
Crying and shouting
You said you would be my everything
Are you really gonna leave
Before you come thru
Babe come thru
Don't leave a nigga on that note
Come thru
Son get your ass in that car
Come thru

Our friendship was everything to me
Now when I need to talk
your no where around

You could call me anytime
I got something
On my tongue already to make you smile
I've never been hard to talk to
I've always wanted you to explore
But now we can't share
This chapter of our lives
With each other

Why can't you have him
I have myself
And you be ok skyping me
Just to say hey
Bringing a smile to my face
While I pause this drake

I'm asking the sky where have you been?
Who's bed have you been crying in?
Who are you flying to?
Come thru why had it been so long