Rise above

She wanted to see me cry
She wanted to see the hurt
She gets me so turned on
When she is so cold

She thinks of my as a hobo
If she only knew
She saved my life
In more ways then one

From saying fuck work
To showing up half an hour early
From running the streets
Till the street lights come on
To being home reading and writing

She built me up to break me down
She inspired a level of confidence
That was long forgotten
Then she doesn't even check it's progress
She is a Christian
They never believe ppl can change or grow
Even though Saul turned to Paul

She wants to see my tears
But I'm too strong now
I'll cry on the inside
and
smile on the outside
I've come to far too let
truths and opinions
Tear me down

I came back to prove a rebirth
She wouldn't accept a birth
The concept was to far fetched
Like Jonas didn't sit in the whale
Praying for his disobedience

She knows she hurts me
I know I hurt her
I've waited so long to right my wrong
Now the chance never comes
But that won't detour my goals
Her gift of change
Can be wasted after I've tended it to
Waiting for this plant to flourish
Waiting for my cup to runneth over
Praying so often my knees hurt