Crazy and conscious

I left you high & dry
Would you take me back though
I left everything behind
When I went to California
You believed me when
I said I was a deity
Now I ask God
to believe in me
I pray at night
For the demons
To leave from me

All this mental abuse
God gave me a warning
Did I heed it
Did I lift you Up
when you drowned
Could I of saved myself
Rose here's the door
Hold me till
I ain't cold no more

Decisions were made
Time while soon fade
Our beds are made
We have nothing to fear
For the Lord
Whispers in our ear
Bringing us near
One day you'll know
Right now your there
1000 miles away
While I'm right here
Hold on
Don't despair

DOA

Another moment of silence
It seem like yesterday
We were sharing jokes
Playing foosball and drinking
So young and alive
I take my life for granted
Yet you had no choice

Another mother's lost a child
Did you really need him now
Lord we weren't ready
That's two for me
Just this year alone
I don't even wanna
Go back to the priors

I remember at Margaret wedding
You lost your love
I had lost mines too
You said your heart hurt
I felt the same
I was lost in liquor
Drowning slowly
In a dark place

You told me smile on them
Theirs enough fish in the sea
Looking into your eyes
I saw the pain
Realized we were one in the same
For some reason
it made sense to me
I went home and
Took the bullets out
My buddy
You saved my life Frank
Why couldn't I save yours

Black suits and ties
Tears and cries
From troubled women
Fill the room
I'm the only one
With a smile
Your in a better place
The Lords got better
Plans for you
I'll miss you Frank

Another fathers lost a son
Margaret probably crying now
If she wasn't yet
If you were here
I know you would say
Something funny or clever
To wipe the frowns
From all their faces
A lost like this takes patience
Builds up blame and frustration
Shatters a family or brings it closer
Reminds you to love more then hate
Time is precise and finite

RIP Frank Roberts
I'll miss you

Never again

I let you in
You broke my insides
I swear never again
They cry and scheme
About my new ways
I just laugh and
Lick their tears
Never again
Will I be vulnerable
Will I give my heart away
I see Hell everywhere

I'm stronger though for it
It hasn't killed me
Just strengthened my immorality
I push her face in the pillow
Tell her shut the fuck up
Just take what you got coming

I feel as if
I can conquer anything
You treated me
like I was average
Now I treat them sub par
Hurt people hurt people
Time heals the pain
The Lord eases the strain
The codeine helps
Me accept the blame
The pen illustrates the game
Securing my prolific fame
Mirroring my shame
While I chase
Another dame

Opiates and aderal

Eighty hour work weeks
Nights I can't sleep
When it's just me
Nightmares fill my brain
Daymares causing a strain
Now I've tried to abstain
The bottled demons
Still talk to me

I've been up for days
My license ain't back
yet I'm driving and thinking
About a planet far away
Rainbow colored women
Green lakes they swim in
Two Sun's in the distance
purple and orange
Floating way up in the sky
As they set so high

I'm dozing now from the morphine
One eye open Like I'm tweeking
A new vision is what I'm seeing
From my mind
To your brain
I transfer my pain
Painted glass window panes
My will to abstain
Imagination and procrastination
Causation and retaliations
Success and love
Hatred and faith in God above

40/60

I thought about this
On a bumpy flight
Leaving Houston
Heading to Atlanta
If your absence's
So concerning
Why am I flirting
With the blonde
In the next seat

All your nieces and nephews
Got your number
Cause your the one
They looking up too
I'm still around too
my little brother
Finally understands
That were through

Cboy just picked me up
In a white Porsche
I'm not the only
One doing numbers now
I use to over react
Now I give no reaction
Most Days are filled
With awkward exchanges

You were wide eyed
and educated At nineteen
I would never
Want you to
End up with nothing
You know what's in my heart
Man looking for women
I would rather you
Be with him and happy
Then with me
Feeling alone and insecure
That's real love
Im willing to die for

Enough of the emotions
Kids are in the streets dying
Cops killing brother of mine
The polar ice caps are melting
My next book drops in January
just another domestic adversary
My mind is in a different space
I'll embrace it until
a New place and face
Come along in red heels
And understand how I feel
Living a life that surreal

Acceptance of blame

How I let it get like this
I know oh to well
Your doing me dirty
It's been months
I haven't even
heard from you

I'm living
I know you are
You never look back
I'm the black knight
Disney never mentions
3am my mind is on you
530 I'm in the gym
My mind is still on you
8 am im at work
Thinking about this chicken

Through my eyes
I've seen my love
Walk away and disappear
Like I was average
Now I got a few girls
I just pay they bills
Slide around and chill
They only wanna smoke
They don't want no issues
This is how we living
Weather its right or wrong
This is how we living

You needed me to step up
I ran from you
I could see in your eyes
You were fed up
I can't blame you
I'll take the blame
Look how we living now
Look how we living now

Punch drunk love the short story

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