Lava making

I'm so hot lava
Gets heat from me
I'm popping like a kernel
I planned to fight my demons
Now the devil I'd trying to test me to pieces
What else can I do but prepare for the rapture
Things that use to confuse me
Now makes more sense to me
I contemplated suicide like a DVD
Now I see I'm not drowning
I'm wading in the water
I hear your voice in the dark
With all the dearth you seen
Does it not make you feel like you got a purpose
I'm suppose to be the Christ bringing
I use to preach and give ppl the holy ghost
I turned to filling ppl with holy smoke
Betting on how much will make us comatose
I was trapped into my dark mind
I just accepted I'm an idiot
Destroying my temple
When I should be buried with a few novels
Instead of alcoholic poisoning and
Tears from loved ones
I'm asked all the time who am I
I had to get out of my mind
Selfish virtues and drug fueled emotions
In order to let go of yourself
You have to let yourself slip
I took the tumble  and realized
It was only my pride that could be hurt
Be a pride full man can't get into heaven
I've been given a chance once again
Note it's time to grab it and run
Like a bank robber with no gun
I wanna drink from the well
That will make me never thirst again
I wanna be honest
Not only to you but to myself