Soon you'll understand

I kept saying you deserve better
Now those words haunt me
Like the last drops in a Hennessey bottle
That's gripped in my hand
Three in the morning by myself

I've made more tears
Fall done your face
Then I should have
My conscience be troubling me

A different girl every week
Since I walked out your front door
I was too young and immature
To understand the consequences
Of my actions in hindsight

You only wanted better for me
I thought you wanted to change me
Pull me away from the streets
That I loved so much

I found myself passed out
On the steering wheel
With nothing but glass
All over my lap and the floor
Not realizing how much
Drugs and alcohol ruled my life
Until the cuffs gripped my wrist

Another felony added to my rapsheet
Now I'm not the man You once knew
I took your advice
followed my dreams
Got a fan base
Buried myself in my notebooks

Now I'm wondering
Could it of been different
If I had just listened
I dream about you
Every night in a week
Waking up in cold sweat
In a dark room alone

It broke my heart to see you go
Even though it was all my decision
I slammed the door
On my own foot Once again
Soon we'll understand
The Lord's master plan