confusion

im  more confused then ever
i never wanted to push you away
my lack my self control
is what spirals us to this fate
you picked a date
didnt i break the code
can i not get time to mature

im looking for clarity and understanding
your words touch my heart like a double edge sword
i still want more
more of the pain more of the loss
open up that vault
and let me in


i will not give up in such a confused state
i will not break down in my prime
i know my heart and i know my love
kitty kat im work towards you
doing the right thing until
time brings us back


fallen out of love how
could that be
when your thinking of me as im thinking of you
or have you found another to replace
those thoughts
i could believe that
but then again i
dont believe that
i pray your studying hard for school
going home and back to your room


thinking of me as a worthy man
thinking of me as your husband
does lose hope on you
and dont beat yourself up
things will be
what things will be