The Truth

It's hard when you fall
It's not easy to succeed
People won't wait forever
Forever in reality is a really long time

I woke up half past six
With you on my mind
I'll get it right this time
Your to fine to just let go
What's thirty hours
To a G like me

You might  not see this now
One day you'll look at it
Three years after our abortion
I'm still wondering why I can't say hey
Tell you about the pigeon
that shit all over me the other day
And how every body says
its good luck over here
What would they say over there
Waking up in cold sweats
The man with no regrets
Can't sleep cause of one

After a year of waiting
My pride still held me down
I looked into your brown eyes and lied
No girls filled my bed
One was more than enough
To turn you off
Even though she was made up
Just to stroke my ego

I apologize for pushing you away
I should of fought to stay
I could of accepted
things were just that way
I went Eric Bennett
Now I can't find my way
Leave me crying in these fast cars
Forget about my bullshit facade
I'm done fronting with the sharades

How many times
did I need to second guess
Before I realized
It tears me apart to be away from you
Now it's to late
Too say I'm not scared either
Every night you told me
Im different
Maury show the results say
That was a lie
I've proven you wrong
I keep hearing the same song

Every where I go
They keep asking me about my sobriety
How do I tell them I'm see sawing
I thought I was strong enough
Too juggle two things at once
Battling between
sobriety and loving myself
I got half written pages in my phone
Everyday I push people further away
I just wanna be left alone
My hearts turned to stone
I never really got a chance to atone
It eats me up inside and
so I make repeatedly make her moan
I'm switching vices
depending on the crisis
Im a mental terrorist
Think something like Isis

If I was you I would run
I live and strive in chaos
That's no place for love
I only want the flesh
I give the buzzards the hearts
El plague negro is here

If we never speak again
At least I got to tell you the truth
I hope these words
leave your heart soothed