Trust Issues

Disillusioned by paranoia
I've alienated my self
From the things I've felt
Filled with hate and regret
From girls I've met
Plates keep getting set
I feel like
I keep getting left
Which must mean im her favorite
My heart needs a break
I've had so much at stake
How much more can i take

I shared my trust issues with you
You turned them into reality
With a smile of sincerity
I fell like a dog  down a well
I'm in shock still
Where can I find my will
How am I suppose to just stay chill
When I just got my fill

You used and abused my trust
Took my love for granted
Then left my heart slanted
I was open and willing
You were setting up a new killing

Even in the face of my distress
You gave me a lie after another
The honesty was kept for the other
The one who holds the money bags
Who can keep you monogamous
Who loves you more than I can

You can't trust family or friends
On the right night
You can't even trust yourself
Where can I turn
Who can I console
How can I trust them with the untold
Why should I ever
leave myself so exposed.