The truth

You use to tell me
I reminded you of your father
A line I've heard many times
From different voices in my life
Was it my punctuality
Or the liquor always on my breath
Could it of been my heart
Since I'm so emotional

Now your with a man
Old enough to literally be your father
Sometimes I think about us
All the things I could of done better
My dreams have faded into accomplishments
You pushed this blog on me
How did you know
My potential was more then I knew

If your reading this
It means I'm no longer with you
Maybe you hate me
Could you want to spite me
Maybe your proud of me
For becoming what
You knew I could be
Possibly you still love me
Deep down in your heart
Cause I still feel for you

I'm living fast but not fast enough
Karma keeps catching up to me
If you hear the rumors of me
And my past disgust you
Then I apologize baby girl
My views of this world
We're misshapen and misconstrued

How many nights I told you
You'll find a better man than me
One that will worship you
As the queen you are
Little did I know
That man was inside of me
Now it's too late to let him free
I pray your New man
Is nothing like me
I pray that he does the things
I regret not doing
Like rubbing your feet
After your long days of work
I pray he shares his feelings
When the nights get cold

I'm leaving my feelings
Here and no where else
Cause I'm In fear
of breaking up a happy home
How did you understand me
Better then I understood myself
I know you've grown now
So I hope these words hit you
Where it counts
Cause they haunt me at night

I was a fool
Just running the streets
When I could of
been building up our home
There is a chance all this true
Like when I say I love you