Rebirth of Matt linart

My image was tainted
Like a rape victims
Character on trial
I demand the truth
As I put my hands
Out the roof

I discovered a new addition
I reach to touch her
but she never there
I have the strangest dreams
Tell her I love her as
She turns her back on me
Crossing a whole sea
Running to China

Creating an obsession
Everyone see's now
I can never be Chris again
Full of fire and pain
A mind filled with controversy
Until the fire dies inside me

My mother's worried about me
I lock myself in my room
For days with only
Notebooks and sheets
I haven't slept in days
I'm writing from sleep deprivation
Suicidal with a smile on

Thinking of you
I'm chasing the same high
My new addiction
Your stronger then a roxy
They wanna put me in the nut house
As I write with writers block
I'll be Damn if that ain't
Some shit

My pupils are diluted
I just jumped over the come down
What should I be afraid of
The world is mines
I'm just an angel
With a missing halo
I'll do this till I turn blue
Cause this could be my last breath
I'll go out of this world
the same way i came in
Right by the pussy
With something on my mind

Every story and poem
Evokes emotions
I write in laymen terms
So she know I'm taking to her
Yeah you kitty Kat
Thank you
It feels fine to be born
At the rate I'm obsessing
It will be hard for me
To find tomorrow
Yet funny enough
I'll be fine by tomorrow

Read every line
And memorize every rhythm
Watch as it consumes you
Let me enter your mind
Breaking open every vice

This is my only obligation
To never slip or fumble
My knees can give out
I'll never trip or stumble

Thank you for giving the world
This gift
Listen to my heart as it beats
Watch as the ink spills
Like blood out the skin
Every line inked in time
Straight from my mind

Chris is no more
Once I step off the plane
Cali done changed me
My manifest destiny
It's finally reached

Their ain't nothing
A pastor could preach
To get this demon
Out of me
I pray to the Lord
To control myself
But he tells me
I'm the greatest
And so underrated