Sunday, August 20, 2017

90 in 90

Two years out of rehab
I'm hiding bottles under my bed
Clutching pill bottles like rigamortis set in
Praying the Lord won't leave me
At least worst then before
I'm opening and closing doors
Burning bridges im on galore
All I know is I need some more
I haven't felt like this
Since the last time I overdosed
Lord hold me close
The coffee keep me up
The stories show me where I'm going
One day at a time
I gotta stop overloading

my best friend left state
now they arguing over child support
but with no man in the home
does the child really get support
watching another man shave with my son
go school shopping with my daughter
all over the book and gram
would make me question
if i was a man

two bottles to begin with
hose and remy
the henny on the steps
just show you ive lost it

I'VE LOST MY WAY
I'M ADRIFT ON A SEA ON FEELINGS
I'm tiping the scale weighing options

I was only gone a few months
Yet that was just too much
You were sick of my stunts 
Our loves just in a funk


Look at me 
Surrounded by broken beds and clocks
What would you do
If ever put in my position?
I'm trying to satisfy everybody
Yet enough is never enough
Now I'm repping team forever alone
My hearts turned to stone
I just want to be alone