Broken clocks

They tick and tock
Yet they just not quite right
Two times a day isn't enough
I thought you had a past
I got a past we must be perfect
I was the car you were the mechanic
if we crash then tomorrow well be fixed
Sounded so nice at that point
I didn't think the car would get totaled

Tell me those lies
Fill my head with things that ain't right
Imprint those sweet nothing's in my brain
Ignore all the pain
Carry on with the show
Can't you hear the applaud
Of the audience that isn't there

My mother always told me
Buy a man shoes
And he'll walk out in that pair
Those pair of toms
Might of made me stay
That was the sign I was praying for
They represented the disappointment
I would of felt in the long run
My point that I was never number 1
Just a side thought
In the middle of the day
I would've stayed
I could've beared another day
I couldn't bring myself too

I had poems for you on the back burner
The words just never expressed my love
They couldn't sum up my gratitude
You saved my life
I'll never forget it
Or turn my back when you need
But there goes that fantasy
If you didn't need me
When I was here
Why would you need me
When I'm not there?

Sadness brings sad songs

You were quicker to change our fb status
Then you were coming up with a response
I sat just listening to the tone
Waiting like I've waited for you
Actions speak louder than words
So drake avant and future
Fill my phone
Can you sense the tone?
Ive opened my heart
Just to end up alone

Your most likely feeling his warm embrace
Ready to break up homes
We can't handle being alone
Maybe he'll do what I couldn't
Will he fill you up
Just how you like?

Your pride was to much
To fit on the side
Not to say mines didn't
Cloud my judgement at times
I keep telling every one I'm fine
Just give me some time
Yet 6 am I'm listening to love songs
Just staring into space
Still in disbelief and aww

How could things of gone so wrong?
I wrote distance and time for you
Thirty hours seemed so light
Just to feel your heavy touch
Now I'm left feeling myself
No du rag on
But ill ride this wave
Tears for a love that once bloomed
Heart ache for a love that died
I'm empty inside
Why couldn't you
believe you completed me
Why was it so hard to see
That you were my world
The black girl that saved my life
The black girl I would've made my wife

Have him and him
I hope they give you what I couldn't
Bring those tears to those woman
Who you'll never see
Just know you lost me
While I was finding myself
I was all yours and no one else
I Was to sure of myself
The fantasy had a hold of me
Guess I needed a snap to reality

#team forever alone

Everything has a price.
Even the white mice in the store.
As I walk out the door.
I wonder am I worth more.
Could you not just hold on longer.
In the absence of love,
We only had lust.
My hearts pleads wasn't enough.
My ebony skin wasn't too tough.
Seven words circle my brain.
Those seven words
fill me with so much pain
They made me feel mundane.
After all the things we've been through
Was that all I was worth to you?

I had kids and shared meals plan.
A baby with a real dark skin tan
A mother who's name
Matched their skin tone
What was this fantasy
Drawn into my head
Likes these words from an ink pen
My love ...my love... my love
Was not enough to fight for
My mind was made up
Those words just closed the door

No more funny memes
No more pleading for more
Just eyor sitting all alone
Here is where I lay
Here is where I stay
Here is where I place my heart
The broken piece of clock
That's back on the shelf

I wanted to love you more
I pushed you to accept me
I forced you to love me
Tied you up and shackled you down
Til you almost drowned
My love is a poison
My love is a drug
My love is the gift
My love is the curse
My love was yours
My love is no more