It's funny how I got so much love in my heart
Yet it took recovery
To find it within myself
I've always been serene
I never knew I needed serenity
Ive been searching for something all these years
Which has been right within me
Hiding like the phone in my hand
That's an addicts joke
That maybe I only found funny
I've learned the true consequences
Of all my selfish decisions
Now looking back
How could I love you
If I didn't love myself
Incarcerating myself from my own design
Cutting the ties
From the fellowship brimming with love
Isolated in a prison from the world
Stranded and alone
With help in sight
That I don't want
Shackled by my guilt
Restrained by my shame
Wallowing with a heart
That was once maned
Shattered and broken
Like glass on the floor
I am the only prisoner
Inside this mental penitentiary
Held captive by no-one
My pride and ego
Force me to remain
Trapped in solitude
Surround by a multitude
Who can't see the pain
Who don't understand
The wheels that turn in my brain
Rationalizations and justifications
Battle in this place
Distrust and insecurities
Are the walls that encase me
Embarrassment and self consciousness
War within my membrane
Am I alone in this struggle
Can I be the only one
Trapped behind these walls
Left alone after a great fall
Isolated in this prison
On an island named loneliness
