Her strength pt2

I've been writing more
Yet lately
It's about things that actually matter
In my letters
I've raised points that were valid
I never meant too
Throw us further off balance
Every page and every song
I gave it my all
In hopes one day
You'll treat me like a human
Stop going through third parties
Pick up the phone and just call
I've sucked up my pride too many times
Would it kill you to just try once?

I miss your brown eyes
I regret not praying
With you at night
Like I tend to do now
I'm sorry for taking you for granted
I just figured you would always be there
Kitty Kat we would leave
Steak and shake
Laughing and giggling
We would Borrow the Tonka toy
To lay up in parking lots
Exposing our nudity to the world
With our bodies entwined
Not caring about the consequences
Of our trespassing and fornication

We were broke back then
Sharing your burgers for lunch
I miss showering with you
Wiping your body down
From head to toe
Not missing a nook or cranny
You would call me daddy
Before you went and met your daddy
Over two hundred poems
Written all in your name
Two books dedicated to your smile
That touch that moved my soul
The one girl who truly
Made me feel whole
Who only asked for the real me
Who I denied night after night

Uttering your name
Gives my mouth a foul taste
I was once happy
That we got our space
Now I can't identify my race
I feel trapped in this place
Everywhere I see your face
From what I was
To what I am
I shouldn't feel like a disgrace
I've loved and made mistakes
Yet I still love you
To this day