Fighting demons

Was it the bottle
Or was it always inside
Has my fight just began
Or is this the final lap

Was Hennessey, hose and Remy
What brought out Matt Linart
Was it always in me
Hiding like a ninja
Or did I awaken him
When I cracked open Pandora's box
Realising the demon
That has become my claim to fame

Searching for my muse once again
Looking high and low
To no prevail
Have I just been looking
in the wrong place
Chasing a dragon
That was never really there

Inspiration comes disguised
As schizophrenia
For how long will the
Voices be quiet in my head
As I beg for their return
Starving like an orphaned child
In the middle of a war zone

Craving another hit
Some voice someplace deep within
To speak to me
Tell me if I've won the battle
Have I beat the demon
Or been defeated
in the name of freedom