Before I self destruct

Sitting in this empty hotel room
Another night alone
The liquor done
The girls are gone
I'm screaming out loud
The neighbors banging on the wall
I'm screaming fuck all y'all

I ain't wrote a thing in days
Writers block got me stressing
My phone ringing
But I ain't even looking
I'm thinking of a new angle
A new story to evoke emotions
Like a rollercoaster
Laughing into tears

These walls stare back at me
Holding the secrets
Of the night before
Silently laughing at me
I'm paranoid about every shadow
That passes my room
As I sit and rock slowly
Fetal position for the night

Will i ever find euphoria
Jumping from her to her
Trying to fill a void
That only God can fill
Thinking with one head
Rather then the other
Drowning in sorrow
Telling everyone their
Well be a better tomorrow
Such an ironic horror