Tuesday, July 24, 2018

Flicking and clicking

Every tone brings me sorrow
I know everytime it won't be you
Here we are again
Left to the others
Cause you can't look me in the eyes
My phone stays ready to die
Yet I'm awaiting your call
I keep setting myself up for the fall
I'm still waiting for a call
Look at the obsession
Can you feel me hurt
Did you hear my heart break
Over the bed you were rocking

Alone in my room
The clock ticks away
Every notification gives me false hope
Your miles away thinking about another
While I'm here stuck on you
Just feeling so blue
Trying to accept we're through
All because I can't provide for you

Another one taken by
A man richer than me
With perverted intentions
When the love got lost
You forgot to mention
Tell me those true words
So I can stop looking at the phone

The anxiety makes me sick
My sleep is never enough
The gym brings no reprieve
I'm attached to my phone
For all the wrong reasons
I wanna hear the truth
Tell me some more lies
Anything to stop my sighs

Clicking and flicking
The phone on and off
Every message ain't the right one
Every notification brings
Me too the depths of despair
This depression has be pulling my hair
Acting out in public
And waiting for someone
to dare Cross that line
so the bomb can explode this time.

Becoming nothing

You laid in my arms
Filled my mind with sweet dreams
False hopes and joys to never be
Played on my emotions
exposing my vulnerability
Only to run and hide

Take away the pain this time
Take away the lies
Every time you look into my eyes
Your hurting but I'm hurting too
Encased in others loving embrace
Trying to fill the void
Holding back the tears
Forcing smiles from ear to ear

Give back the love you stole
Make my heart whole once more
Was it not you
Who i did adore
I never lied,  i never broke ties
Yet it wasn't enough to stop the lies

Month after month we fight whats inside
The dream was to be side by side
I bought it and more
Even the child you never bore

I was convinced I was different
I was convinced I was special
To find out I was nothing but a pawn
The only one who wanted you
To have everything you wanted
The only one who couldn't afford to do it
The pauper played for a fool
All in the name of love.