Sleepless nights

So many questions
Got me having sleepless nights
Yet I've found beauty in the struggle
Ugliness in my success

Long days and longer nights
From being built up
To be broken down
Finding love
To searching for love

What's half a heart
Or half a lung
When the mind feels strung
Filled with longing and desires
Nights feel colder then the desert
Yet her body warms me
While my conscience cries

My heart has frozen over
While my mind's focused
Less sleep means
More productivity
More ways to express myself
Pushing my life farther
Towards the spot light
I so desperately desire

Killing Nancy the short story

I'm not much of a writer. In fact writing was always my worst subject in school. In a time like this though. Writing could save my life. My name is Thomas R. Grant. I am from Minnesota and 36 yrs. old. I have been married for 12 years and thought we were happy.

I'm taking this time now to write. In case my worst fears come true. I think my wife is going to try and kill me. I'm not willing to let that happen though. I find that I might have to kill her first. Unless she will allow reason to set in. if your reading this now. Either I'm dead or in jail. You will know the true story or at least what happened to me. You can help put my killer in jail. Or free me for a crime I had no other choice to commit.

Now I can only imagine you’re thinking this guy is insane. Give me a few moments and hear me out though. See things from my perspective. Today is May the 31 and the year is 1995. I'm going to meet a private investigator named James Babot.

Over the past few months I think my wife Sarah has been cheating. All the signs point to it. She has been distant physically and emotionally. She is always on the phone with a mystery someone. When I leave in the morning. I've come home for lunch and found her gone.

You might think a divorce is called for. Yet she won't sign the papers. We signed a pre-nuptial agreement. She knows divorce leaves her with exactly what she came into this with. Only The shirt on her back. Sarah says nothing is wrong. As she sleeps in our guest room at night. I'm afraid to eat in my house. I can't sleep in my bed. Every sound alerts me to impending danger. I could be paranoid or I could be right.

All my life I've been told. Go with your gut feeling. The first thought you have is always the right choice. That's never lead me wrong. Why should I doubt it now? Thirty five years on this earth and never felt such a fear. The woman I love has me looking over my shoulder.

I know it is coming I’m just wondering when it will happen. The anticipation might kill me before she does. The gun we bought for home protection. No longer sits in my dresser draw. I sleep with it under my pillow. I feel safer having it close to me. I have never been an advocate for guns. Never dreamed of taking a life.

Guns are for protection. They shouldn't be used to maintain your sanity. Especially in your own home of all places. The past few months have changed my way of life. I'm not looking forward to the next few months. Which is why I had to get this private investigator. Knowing her moves might bring me peace or, at least give me a one up on her.

After leaving the investigator I feel a little better. James told me give him a few weeks and he would contact me. From my research he is the best at what he does. I hate having to go to such an extreme. My mind is so burned out with thinking. I can't imagine what I could have done. To get me and Sarah to this point. Was it love in the beginning or was she always after my money.

All these questions have circled my mind. They are slowly suffocating me. Even my associates have noticed I'm distracted at work. They think I'm becoming an alcoholic. Since after we go to the bars I no longer want to rush home. I want to stay longer, sometimes I even help the bartender close up. Anything not to come home to this dreadful house. To not have to think about what awaits me.

Sarah still leaves food out for me. I usually make sure I eat before I come home. I throw everything she cooked into the trash and make sure I take it out. I wear gloves just to wash the dishes. The fear of some kind of poison getting into my system. Has me being very meticulous with how I carry out these deeds.

It's been two days since I left Babot's office. Every time my phone rings I expect it to be him. Ready to tell me he saw her buying stock piles of rat poison. Or whatever people use to kill people now a days. Maybe she isn't trying to kill me. Maybe Sarah wants to drive me insane. Just lock me away in some mental intuition and never look back.

I came home tonight to find her home. Sarah was sitting at the dinner table. The house was dimly lit and the table set. My favorite foods were laid out for me. Macaroni pie, a New York cut steak seared medium well, baked potatoes and a Caesar salad. All just ready for me with candles lit in the center of the table.

Sarah sat across the table in the dress she knows I love. A pinstripe Louis Vuitton we bought in Paris a few years back. She smelled better than the food. Even across the room I could smell her Chanel no.5 perfume. Everything just how I like it, just how it use to be.

I sat down with caution searching the room. I felt like the road runner just waiting for an anvil to fall on me. Sweat began to pour down my forehead. It felt as if the room was heating up. Yet there she sat cool calm collective. Looking as beautiful as the day I met her. Getting up Sarah walked over to me.

She grabbed my napkin off the table and put it around my neck. Gave me a long seductive kiss on my check. Then began setting a plate for me. Watching her handle the food. My stomach began to growl. 

"You must be hungry after such a long day. I know we've been at an ends. The past few weeks. I wanted to do something special for you. Hopefully after dinner we could go to bed together"

My mouth felt as dry as sand paper. I didn't know what to say. I didn't know whether to believe her or accept my fate. Eat my favorite meal and then go meet my maker. I mustered the only words I could find to defuse the situation.

"This looks amazing thank you. I went to dinner with the rest of the associates, before I came here. I'm stuffed love, why don't you go get ready for bed. I'll put up this banquet for lunch tomorrow. I'll be up soon"

"O that's funny I talked to Johnny battle earlier and he was home"

I was dumb struck she had me dead to rights. What could I say to get out of this? Was another lie going to help me now?

"He didn't come with us. I went with the other guys. I'm sure Johnny didn't know we were going."

"O...ok"

The look she gave me told me she knew I was lying. I could feel the sweat start to drop off my nose. For a lawyer I'm not much of a good liar but I held my poker face.

"Well I'll go shower and meet you in the bed room."

Sarah smiled and went upstairs. I quickly ran to the kitchen in search of my gloves. I looked everywhere for them. I couldn't find them. She must have found them and threw the them out. Was she on to me? Did she know what I had been doing with all the past dinners? Maybe I was just so scared and nervous I was overlooking them. No impossible I always put the box in the same place. Always in the back of the pantry.

With deep pain I gathered up the table. Putting all the food in Tupperware. I would just throw it out in the morning. There was a dumpster behind the office. Slowly I made my way upstairs. When I got in the bedroom. My heart dropped to my balls.

Sarah was sitting in the bed in her bathrobe holding my pistol. She was just looking at me as she slapped the clip back in. I was again at a loss for words but I had to say something. I couldn't let her see the fear in me.

"What are you doing honey"
"I was fluffing your pillow and find this under it. Why is it not in the drawer?"

She hasn't been in our bedroom in months. Now Sarah knew that I was prepared for her. Tonight is going to be the night I told myself. Sarah is going to kill me in our bedroom. No I wouldn't let it happen like this. I was not going to be gunned down in my own home.

"I was cleaning it yesterday and just put it there"
"Well it's fully loaded with one in the chamber. You should be careful love. I wouldn't want you to accidentally kill yourself."

Sarah and I made love that night. Usually I would go right to sleep but so many things were on my mind. I wanted to know what had changed. Had this whole time I been paranoid for no reason. No...Impossible. She was up to something I just knew it.

I went to work today and all my associates. Told me that Sarah had called them yesterday. So I wasn't crazy she knew I was lying. This just makes me know for certain something was up. When I came home she had dinner ready again. This time though I made sure I covered all bases.

I took all my associates out on my own dime. I bought a new box of gloves and put them in my trunk. We made love again. This time I slept well though. My gun was back in its draw. Tomorrow I look forward to hearing Mr. Babot’s report.

Taking a break from work. I went to his office. What he showed me was exactly what I had feared this whole time. Sarah was cheating on me. The guy was a drug trafficker. He lived in a very nice apartment. On the upper part of the city. He was a built black guy, with more tattoos then an art exhibit.

The worst part about it was his name was Nancy. Who were his parent’s sir Bartholomew and Lady Gwyneth? Who names their son Nancy in this day and age? Is it because he was supposed to be a Nancy-boy. This can't be my life right now. My head begins to start to spin a little.

Looking at the video every time he looked into the camera. I felt as if he was looking into my soul. What my wife would see in this man. I could see it clearly. He drove an all-white Mercedes 550 most days. That wasn't the only flashy car. My wife got out of that week. His clothes all seemed tailored for him. If it wasn't a Versace suit. It was Tom Ford and polo's shirts with 5th avenue jeans.

With a small entourage behind him every few days. Nancy seemed to be a made man. Compared to me I was too modest for all of that. I would of gave Sarah anything she desired. Over the years I had amassed a small fortune. Winning cases from New York to Los Angeles. I took her all around the world from the day we met.

Sarah loved the finer things in life. I admired her for that. I tried to appease her request, in order to live a finer life. I was not cheap I just didn't see the point in buying $300 jeans. When a pair of Levi's do the same thing. They even last longer if you ask me.

Why do I need a foreign car when my Camaro. Can cover a quarter mile in 12 seconds.  I own mines, I'm not paying for nothing but insurance. Not to say I didn't allow Sarah to tear down 5th avenue, or any shopping strip that she so choose.

Day by day I see them. Even some nights when I slept. I call her when I leave for work. Sarah told me she was at the gym. Or running with the neighborhood joggers. How long has this been going on? Could I have been this blind the whole time? Sarah was only with me for my money. All the nights of caressing, and how much we loved each other. Meant nothing to her I see now.

As the video went on the sicker I felt. I wanted the truth. Now that it was in my face. I wished that I had been wrong the whole time. Nancy seemed like the complete opposite of me. Every kiss they exchanged boiled my blood. I wanted to stop looking but I couldn't look away. I needed to see it all.

I wanted to know how deep into this they really were. I wanted to know everything about Nancy. Who he was what he had done his whole life? I felt consumed with curiosity and anger. Was Sarah trying to kill me to be with him? Babot told me he had served time before. Armed robbery and breaking& entering.  A few possessions charges here and there.  He seemed to be a career criminal.

Sarah had also been going to a gun range. Something she only done with me a few times. She didn't hate guns but Sarah wasn't an avid fan. The power to be able to kill someone, was too much for her she told me. Now she was in the gun range practicing to do just that.

I thanked Mr. Babot and asked him to keep me posted. Leaving his office I felt disgusted. I just wanted to shower all the filth off of me. To think she could leave him to come kiss and sleep with me. Just made me sick to my stomach. Could this really be happening? I felt so dizzy driving. I sped all the way home. Something I usually don't do.

I am filled with so much anger and regret right now. I want to cry but the tears won't come down. I'm so confused and lost right now. I found myself praying. Something I also don't usually do. Not that I don't believe in God. I just haven't been the most faithful to him. I can't remember the last time I even went to church, or took communion. But now here I am on my knees praying for an answer.

Sarah came home I couldn't even look at her. She tried to touch me I pulled away and left. I'm staying at the Marriott tonight. It's been so long since I've been in a hotel by myself. My mind is racing and my heart along with it. I'm pacing I stand and I sit. I need to sleep but I can't. This is driving me insane.

I would have to do something about this. I wouldn't just stay and take this laying down. No longer would I be afraid in my own home. This was going to end now. It would either be me or him. Sarah would have to choose. Or I would be forced to take things into my own hands.

Sarah got out her Honda civic and walked into Nancy's apartment. She stopped for a minute and looked right at him. Babot sat in his car with his video camera. He had followed her since she left the house. From whole foods to Nancy’s place. Babot figured she was going to make Nancy dinner. Looking right back at her he felt as if he had been spotted.

Now that she went inside he shook that thought out his head. All these years Babot had become very careful going about trailing people. This wasn't his first rodeo following a cheating wife. After a few hours he could see them in the living room kissing. They got up and the lights went out. Babot figured they were going to bed.

Now was a perfect time to get home and get some rest for himself. He had enough video footage for the day. By the time Sarah left in the morning. Babot knew he would be right back to catch her. Pulling off though a strange feeling began to fill him. He shook it off knowing he was careful. Arriving home he began to upload the footage to his computer.

About half way through his third beer. A knock came at his door. Babot grabbed his revolver and tucked it behind his back. Looking through the peep hole his heart dropped into his stomach. Sarah was standing at front of his door.

"I know your home. Are you going to open the door?"

Babot opened the door and greeted her. Sarah walked in and stood in the living room. Looking around at his small one bedroom apartment. She saw his computer and all his video equipment. Goose bumps ran up her arm. Thinking about all the things he had seen.

"What can I do for you Mrs. Grant.”?
"I know you've been following. I've come to warn you. Please stop you don't understand what you’re getting into. It's not what you think"
"Well why don't you explain it to me. If you know I've been following you. Then you know I have a pretty good idea about what's going on."
"Nancy isn't the type of man you say no too"

Babot went into the kitchen and grabbed another beer. He offered Sarah some water or a drink. To which she declined as he expected. This wasn't the first time a cheater had found him. Tried to explain the reason they are doing what they are doing. Over the years he had heard all types of excuses and reasons. It had made him numb, to their want to find understanding from him.

Placing his gun on top of the fridge. Babot cracked opened his beer. He listened to her and tried to seem interested. Everything they were saying was being recorded. He would also put it in his report to her husband. It only seen right that he hear her out. To show Mr. Grant what her true intentions were.

Suddenly his door got kicked in. Sarah screamed and he jumped up. Before Babot could get back in the kitchen. Three men with mask on. We're in his apartment with guns to their heads. Nancy strolled in with a smile on his face. He looked at the two of them. Then around the cramp apartment in disgust.

"You've been a busy man Mr. Babot. Did you think I wouldn't know I was being watched.”?
"You’re not going to get away with this"
"Please Nancy let’s just go. Please...”
"Shut up did you think I wouldn't know where you went?"

One of the gun men gun butted Mr. Babot in the face. Blood flew out his mouth as he fell back in the couch. Nancy walked over and grabbed up his laptop. He ripped it right off the camcorder. Sending the camera and equipment flying off the table. He grabbed Sarah by the hand and pulled her up off the couch. As she cried and pleaded for his mercy. Nancy led her out the apartment not even looking back.

As they walked down the hall to the elevator. The sound of furniture being over turned and broken. Echoed in the hallway. When the elevator doors opened. The sound of three gun shots made Sarah jump. She began to cry and try to pull away from Nancy. He tightened his grip around her hand.

"You didn't have to do that. He was just working for my husband."
"You think your husband was the only person he was going to report too. I'm not going back to jail and I'm not going to be away from you again"
"I hate you and I'll never love you. You’re a monster Nancy and a thug."

With a swift hand Nancy smacked Sarah quiet. As she grabbed her face he caressed it and apologized.

"You’re being rude. You know I hate to act like that with you. Don't talk like that it's not lady like"

As they walked out the apartment building. Nancy had three black escalades parked outside. The door to one opened up. Nancy looked back up toward Babot's apartment. Flames started to roar inside of it. A man’s hand came out the car and helped her in.

Nancy gently pushed her inside the car. As they drove off the sound off an explosion made Sarah jump. She looked back and saw black smoke bellowing out the 7th floor window. With tears in her eyes she buried her face in her hands.

"I'm sorry you had to see that. I don't mean to bring such things into your life"
"Get your hands off of me you animal. You’re a thug. You heartless animal he was only doing his job."

Sarah began to beat on Nancy. He pushed her away and fixed his clothes. She was about to go in for another attack. Then he raised his hand. Remembering the hit in the elevator Sarah stopped and sat quiet. She moved all the way to the window seat and continued to cry.

This might be the last time I get to write. I went out and bought a bullet proof vest today. I have a revolver and my 1911 strapped to me. In going to confront Nancy and Sarah tonight. I went home and she wasn't there. I know where she is and I know where he lives. This all ends tonight. Either I get my wife back or I'll be another body on his list. In the most iconic words I can quote right now.

"See you in the funny papers"

I'm sweating so heavy as I prepare myself. I've never been much of a fighter. I love Sarah and want her back. If I have to be brave for the both of us then that's what I have to do. I'll show her how much she means to me. Even if it means standing up to Nancy and his crew of thugs.

Thomas sat in his car shaking. The sweat was pouring off his face. His palms were itchy and sweaty. He had been in his car for over an hour just waiting. Finally three Escalades pulled up. Nancy got out and Sarah followed. He was almost dragging her into the apartment building. Thomas gripped his steering wheel tightly. His blood began to boil just watching them.

He took a minute to settle his nerves. This wasn't a movie he told himself. Bullets will kill and I might not walk out alive. This is for my family and sanity. It's tonight or never. Thomas got out his car and slowly walked toward the building. He knew Nancy lived on the top floor. In the pent house suite.

Taking the elevator up Thomas paced around it. Nervous as he had never been before. The elevator doors opened and he took a second before he stepped out. With a deep breath he stepped out and gripped his 1911.

One of Nancy's crew members was standing outside the door. Thomas popped a shot right in his head. Dropping the man before he could even speak. Suddenly the apartment door opened. Four men with guns rushed out. They looked at their dead comrade and then at Thomas.

The first man got a shot in the chest. He dropped his gun and held his chest. Before Thomas knew what was happening a full on gun battle had begun. He ducked behind a pillar trying to take cover. Bullets ripped out chunks of the wall. Vases in the hall way exploded. Flowers and the water inside them hit the floor.

Thomas fired a few more rounds to return fire.  A bullet hit another man and he went down. Two down two more to go he told himself. Trying to stay focus amidst the chaos.  He heard their guns click as they were out of ammo. As if the devil was on his heels. Thomas ran straight for them unloading his gun.

Both men went down before Thomas finally ran out of bullets. He ducked behind another pillar and tried to reload as fast as he could.  His hand felt like it had butter on it. The clip dropped and slid a few feet away from him. Thomas looked over the pillar to see if the coast was clear. As he bent over to grab the clip. A shot rang out hitting him in the shoulder.

Thomas grabbed the clip and rolled back toward the pillar. He was in so much pain but he couldn't stop to think about it now. The door to Nancy's apartment was wide open and he was only a few feet away. Finishing the mission was all that was on his brain. The adrenaline pumped through his body. Looking at the wound he realized the bullet went straight through. It even cauterized the wound so he wasn't bleeding as much.

The first guy out the apartment was the one who shot him. The man was now barely standing and making his way toward him. Fumbling with the clip Thomas finally slapped it in. The man shot bullet after bullet into the pillar.  As the man got within a few feet of him. Thomas rolled and shoot him right in the head. The goon slowly dropped the gun and fell back down.

Thomas got up holding his arm and made his way toward the apartment door. He figured he only had about ten or fifteen minutes before the cops showed up. His arm felt heavy and began to tingle as if he slept on it all night. With his gun in hand Thomas entered the apartment. Sarah sat on the couch looking scared.

"Thomas lookout"

Nancy bashed Thomas hand sending the gun flying across the room. He jumped on Thomas and began to pummel him. The blows felt like a train was hitting him each and every time. Blood began to run out his mouth like a faucet. Sarah screamed and cried for Nancy to stop. She ran over and jumped on his back.

With one strong shove Nancy sent her flying across the room. She hit her head on the coffee table and was knocked out. Nancy got up from beating Thomas and began to kick him repeatedly. Every kick sent more blood flying on to his Persian rug.

"You want to kill me... do you know who I am? You come here like Rambo and expect to save the girl. She is mines and your life is mines."

Nancy in a rage gave Thomas one more kick. He searched the room like a mad man. Finally eyeing what he was looking for. Nancy went and grabbed Thomas's 1911.  He walked back over and began to gun butt his face. Yelling at him for ruining his expensive rug and killing his henchmen.

Nancy cocked the gun back and aimed it at Thomas head. As he did he heard the click of another gun and froze. Nancy paused and he turned around. He saw Sarah holding her own gun. She was shaking and scared.

"Step away from him Nancy. This ends tonight. I won't let you kill the man I love."
"So you’re going to shoot me in cold blood. You’re a killer now Sarah? Well go on shoot me."

Nancy kept screaming for her to do it as he inched closer. With each step Sarah's hand trembled more. All the practice she got in the range didn't prepare her for this. She felt as if she would pee herself. Finally Nancy stood in front of her. He grabbed her gun and pointed it at his heart. Sarah thought she was going to faint. Her head started to spin but she didn't take her hand off the trigger.

"You don't have the guts to be a killer. You’re weak Sarah. I loved you and would have given you everything. Now you turn on me"

Nancy grabbed the little snub nose Sarah was holding. He tossed it aside and went to raise his hand to strike her again. Before he could a shot rang out and stopped him. Nancy looked down at the blood starting to form on his shirt. He turned around to see. Thomas bloody and holding his revolver. Nancy took a step forward toward him and pointed his gun at him. Thomas fired two more shots into him. Nancy fell to his knees and died.

Sarah ran over to Thomas and grabbed him as he was about to hit the floor. She was hysterical and crying. Telling him how sorry she was. How much she loved him and wanted to be with him forever. Thomas had only enough strength to utter a few words.

"Get the guns and let's go home honey"

Hive minds.2 The Short Story

Laura and Gavin laid kissing on top of their blanket.  The moon and the stars lit up the night. It was a warm July fourth night in New Mexico.The sounds of fire works blasted off in the distance. They looked each other in the eye.paused for a moment to take it in.then kissed passionately while they caressed each other.

Gavin was 5'10 and stocky.his black skin almost camouflaged him in the night.The small camp fire they had going shined off of Laura's white skin. she touched Gavin's face caressing it as she looked into his dark brown eyes. having him with her now made Laura feel weak inside. she loved Gavin with all her heart. it had been four years since they met. the shade tree they laid under was the spot where they had their first kiss.

Laura loved how Gavin tried to find ways to be romantic. he had his faults but every time he looked into her eyes. Laura know he loved her with all his heart. Gavin was a manager at best buy and Laura taught at the local school. they did not have much but they made it work. that was another reason Laura loved him. Gavin could make the best of a bad situation. over the years they had their ups and downs but fought through it. 

Now Laura was ready for the next step she wanted to spend her life with Gavin. maybe have some kids in the next couple years. build a family and build their life together. she knew their must of been a special reason he brought her here tonight. over the past couple of weeks Gavin had been acting real funny. not in a cheating suspicious way but in a your planning something big type of way. Laura knew her man and knew when the wheels were turning in his head.

Gavin sat up and took Laura's hand into his. she sat up to met his eyes. Gavin looked into Laura's Beautiful green eyes and paused for a minute. he stood up and held his hand out for her to take it. Laura took his hand and Gavin guided her to the edge of the cliff that over looked their small town. 

"Laura you know I've loved you since the first day i saw you. he have broken up and gotten back together. we have laughed and we have cried together. through all that has happened over the last four years. their is no other woman. i would of rather go through it with. you

 make me happy and i love to wake up to you every morning for the rest of my life" Gavin said getting down on one knee.

Gavin pulled a small box out his pocket. Laura's eye lit up with joy she was at a lost of words. then suddenly something in the sky caught her eye. the excitement that was once on her face turned into fear. she thought it was just a meteor falling but then the size and speed of it was not right. a meteor would of broke up mostly in the atmosphere already.

"whats wrong" Gavin asked looking up

Laura was in such fear she could only point. some thing was falling from the sky and headed straight towards them, it was streaking fire from falling through the atmosphere. it looked like a space ship from the size of it. Gavin grabbed Laura and tucked the small box back in his pocket. they ran to the car half way to it the  thing crashed about a quarter mile away from them. Gavin threw Laura on the floor and hoped on top of her. just in time for the impact which burst out the windows of their car.

they rolled over knocking glass shards off of them. Gavin looked at Laura and checked her for any harm. she was shaken up but fine other wise.he stood up and put his hand out once more for her. Laura took it and stood to her feet. Gavin began to walk toward the wreck. Laura pulled him back with a look of fear in her eyes. the booms are fireworks lit up the sky and echoed above them. Gavin turned to Laura.

"we have to go see if anyone is hurt. that could be a trapped or injured pilot."
"that was not a normal ship dear. its something else. lets just go get help. if something is wrong with someone neither of us are doctors. what could we do?"
"we can do something dear. it never hurts to go check and then get help. lets just identify exactly what we need help with first."

Gavin continued to turn around and Laura followed him. they passed their wrecked ford focus. noticing some dents in the passenger side frame. Laura could only cover her mouth as she looked at her dented up car. they walked on toward the crash site and edged to the gaping hole in the earth now. the ship was about 20 feet down into the massive hole. the small craft was about 10 feet wide and 8 ft across. it looked to Gavin like a big shiny refrigerator that fell off a plane.

Gavin and Laura looked at each other without saying a word. Their eyes took on a greenish hue.  They began walking toward the town. Between the two of them not a word was uttered. They spoke telepathically.

A few miles up the road they saw their bar. "The watering hole" was the saloon for the older crowd in town. They had spent many nights here just drinking and laughing. It didn't have all those flashing lights and obnoxious DJ's. It was a simple bar, with four booths and a small dance floor. A few seats around the bar and a small jukebox. Which was filled with old and new pop & rock greatest hits.

Gavin and Laura went inside and headed straight to the bathroom. A few people who knew them waved or hollered their name. Neither of them looked their way or responded.  Laura closed the bathroom door behind them. She also cut off the lights.

Standing in the darkness their eyes lit up. Laura punched Gavin in the chest and slapped him in the face. He pushed her into the wall cracking the mirror. People outside of the bathroom began to look at it hearing the rumbling. Gavin finally asserted his dominance on Laura.they began to mate. Laura moaned loudly as Gavin plowed into her.The bartender Aaron came to the door.he turned the knob and realized it was locked. Aaron banged on the door hard.

"Hey this isn't a motel you two need to get out of there."

Neither of them responded or stopped. Aaron banged on the door and kicked it. Seeing that he was making a scene.he turned and went back to the bar angrily. Reaching under it Aaron grabbed the ring of keys. As he went back to the door Aaron stopped hearing complete silence. Gavin and Laura weren't making a sound, everyone in the bar was watching him.

As Aaron began to put the key into the hole. Laura began to scream in pain. Aaron quickly opened the door.he was taken back by what he saw. Gavin was on his knees in front of Laura. She was sweating with her legs wide open. As if she was preparing to give birth.

"What the fuck is going on here"

As Aaron finished his sentence. Laura let out one final scream. She gave a hard push, small black balls began falling out of Her vagina. Aaron stepped back in horror. The balls began to hatch. Small blue and green butterflies began coming out of them.

Aaron stepped back in horror as the butterflies flew up in a group. One landed on his hand and bit into him. He jumped back and tried to get it off his hand. The butterfly dug into his skin.Aaron watched on in horror, as the butterfly made its way up his arm and onto his neck. Aaron instantly calmed down. His eyes took on the greenish hue.

Around the bar the other patrons stated to freak out seeing the sight. Some tried to get out the bar. Others were being taken over by the butterflies. They scratched their skin and screamed. As the aliens made there way through their bodies. A few drunk guys began trying to shoot the butterflies out the sky.

A few of the converted began to subdue them. In order for their brethren to land and take over. Once the bar was fully converted they all looked at Gavin and Laura. Without saying a word they all understood the next phase. The converted followed Gavin and Laura out the bar.

Thirty of the town people walked in unison behind the two. They were headed toward the town. The night illuminated their greenish hue colored eyes. A local sheriff cat drive down the road and stopped a few feet in front of them. The deputy Carl got out and yelled.

"What's going on here"

Gavin walked up with that eye silence and a straight face. The deputy knowing him began to ask him what was wrong. The look in Gavin's eyes made the deputy back up and reach for his mace.

"Gavin you stop right there....I don't know what's going on....don't make me use this"

Gavin continued walking forward without saying a word. He put his hand in his shirt pocket. The deputy Todd him to stop and pulled out the mace. Gavin took a butterfly out his pocket. He held it gently as he stepped closer. Once he got to the hood of the car. Carl sprayed him with mace.

Gavin released the butterfly and screeched in pain. The group also let out a screech to match his. They felt the burn of the mace just as he did. Carl looked at the butterfly that was flying toward him. Ignoring it he kept his eyes on the screeching group. A cold chill started coming up his spine.

Carl jumped into his car and grabbed the radio.

"Sheriff I'm down county line road from the watering hole...I think I need backup.. I got something weird going on.... what the hell..."

The butterfly landed on his neck and began to bury inside him. Carl squirmed and hollered as the alien began trying to convert him. The dispatcher frantically tried to ask him what the problem was. Carl stood up and looked at Gavin. Without saying a word he fixed his clothes, and fell in line with everyone else.

The group continued on toward the town. They cut through the woods getting off the road. The town fair was only a few miles ahead of them. As they grew near to it. Gavin and Laura stopped halting the group. The group instantly began having a group orgy. Within minutes all the women in the group began birthing out more of the black balls. Slowly they began hatching.

As the butterflies rose up in the sky. The group proceeded toward the fair. They spread out and began covering the entrances. The butterflies swarmed into the fair. They began covering everyone the landed on. Quickly panic set into everyone at the fair. A fire broke out in the confusion and began to spread. Helium canisters exploded and sent flames everywhere.

As people tried to rush to their cars. The converted outside at the entrances restrained them.  People were trampled and the fair animals yelled in fear. Chaos broke out as the converted closed in on who remained. The People surrounded genes whatever they could to defend themselves. As the converted and butterflies inched closer. Their resistance was futile. they fought hard but eventually dead in the struggle or was converted.

As the fire consumed the fair the converted followed Gavin and Laura to the town. Suddenly they stopped in the middle of the woods. Gavin turned around and looked at a few of his brethren. They immediately nodded. He grabbed Laura's hand and they walked off into the woods.

Mira fought her thoughts as she headed to the skate park. All the thoughts of the converted swarmed through her head. She knew Gavin and Laura were headed to her. Mira hoped that all her friends were going to be there. The group chat she had been frantically watching. Said all the teens were going to meet their.

The Naru were who these invaders were. memories of their past and purpose flashed through her brain. Mira knew why they were here now and, knew if she did not stop them more would come. the Naru were a conquering race. they spread through out the galaxy assimilating all they came across into the hive.on a quest for all the knowledge in the galaxy's. the group that landed here was just a scouting pod. sent through space and finding earth as a prime target for life. once they had taken over the town they were going to signal the hive to their finding. Mira bobbed and weaved through the woods desperately trying to get to the skate park.

She found the sudden burst of knowledge overwhelming and disorientating. trying to focus ahead of her became very difficult. the hundreds of voices in her head were relentless. then she feared Gavin and Laura were on to her plans. they knew where Mira was and she knew where they were. only a few miles separated them.  it would not be long before they got to her and the rest of the teens. Mira tried her hardest to pick up her pace. Gavin and Laura calmly walked toward her without even a slight discomfort. Mira was almost drenched in her own sweat from the humidity.

Knowing her plan the Naru had already began devising their own counter plan. Mira knew they normal conquering strategy now. the would divide and multiply first. then shut of communication to the town. the main group of the converted would continue converting as many of the town folk as they could. while two sub groups would systematically begin preparing to contact the mother hive. one would close off all communication outgoing and within the town. the other would begin setting up a home nest to replenish the fleet.

The breeding group already picked the abandoned hosiery mill as their home hive. Mira could feel the emotions as they commenced mating. the pure unbridled  lust and passion the were giving her made it even harder to run. trying with all her might to block it out she pushed on to the skate park. which was only a half mile through the woods now. finally clearing the trees she could see a group of people congregating at the bowl. getting closer she heard them shouting and the panic in some of their voices. others just cried and held on to each other watching the rest.

Thomas her best friend ran seeing her in the distance ran over to her with Catlin. they expressed their worry about her. told her what they knew so far. Mira stopped them and told them what she knew. Thomas and Catlin looked at each other in disbelief. Mira could feel the awkwardness and hesitation from them. yet she did not have time to try and make them believe her. Gavin and Laura where not to far from them. they had to move and put a plan in action.

"Guys we do not have time for this. the Earth is in danger and if we do not move now we'll all be converted."

Mira ran to the group and began to shout. everyone quieted down and focused on her. she repeated what she told Thomas and Catlin. again she got the same response yet this time the cries of fear became louder.

"why should we believe you nerd. if what you say is true, how do we know you are not one of them? this could be a trap. to lure the rest of us in and convert us."
"listen guys I know this is hard to believe but two of them are heading toward us now. if we do not make a plan of action its going to be to late. fire is their weakness they cant handle the heat. if we can get to the hosiery and burn it down. we can slow down this invasion. how we are going to handle the ones that are converted already is another story. they know my every move i am connected to them some how but i am fighting it. i do not quite understand how yet but i know what i am saying and we can stop them. we have to work together and we have to work fast."
"how are we going to stop the whole town. they have already converted most of the people in town. its only us and the last we have heard. a bunch of the town folk are held up at city hold trying to hold them off. they have shut down all the cell towers and have already taken control of the police station. we are out gunned and out manned."
"it is hopeless we are all doomed" one girl shouted from the back and began to cry even louder
"shut up Suzy... I wish they had got you at the fair. it would of saved us one more weak link." another boy shouted from the mob.

The group began to argue among themselves. the shouts and insults drowned Mira's cry for peace and action out. finally a shot rang out and every one quieted down. Thomas stepped forward he grabbed Mira's hand and nodded to her. Thomas was always ready to take control of a situation. that was what Mira loved about him. He was always strong in the face of diversity. now more then ever Mira realized how much she had depended on him over all these years. the love in her heart grew ten fold. yet now was not the time for her to get all emotional and spill her love for him. a road they had been down one to many times over the years.

 she felt a wave of relief come over her. this whole ordeal was beginning to weigh heavy on Mira's mind body and even her spirituality. since getting bit at the fair Mira had been praying for god to give her strength.in her heart she believed that he was giving her the strength and will power to fight off the Naru. why the lord has chosen her was still a mystery. thinking about her mother, Mira could hear her saying the lord works in mysterious ways. now though more then ever Mira questioned what those ways were.

her mother was one of the converted and all the faith that she has bestowed into her was gone. now she was part of the hive. thinking about her mother Mira could feel her giving birth in the hosiery mill. the thought of baby Naru coming out of her mother made her weak to the stomach. Gavin and Laura's presence at the clearing before the skate park. snapped Mira back to reality she quickly regained her composure.

"guys you have to move. they are here already. you guys need to form a plan of attack. do not tell me cause then they will know. i will stay and try to hold them off so you guys can get a head start on them. their weakness is fire or high voltages. it will fry the Naru's connection from the brain if the host is over heater or shocked well enough. be careful though severing the connection from the host, can possibly kill the host. if their bond is strong enough with it. I hope that helps I wish i had more information on their weak points."

The group turned to look at where Mira was facing as she spoke. they all saw Gavin and Laura walking calmly across the field towards them. quickly Thomas took charge again and herded everyone out the park. where he was headed he was not sure not. all he knew was the skate park was not safe anymore. Mira began to walk towards Gavin and Laura. Thomas grabbed her hand and spun her around. before she could say anything or figure out the problem. Thomas kissed her passionately on the lips. Mira stood shocked he had taken the breath away from her. all these years of being friends she had waited for this moment. with her luck it would happen when the world was about to end she thought.

"I have always cared about you Mira, but i have never wanted to ruin what we had as friends. please take care of yourself. i will do my part to try and stop this. no matter what happens. at sunset make your way to the Pentecostal church. i will be there waiting for you"

Before Mira could respond Thomas gave her another kiss and a tight hug. she just nodded as he turned and tried to catch up with the group. Mira watched for a moment as he slowly disappeared into the woods. where he was headed she did not know and did not want to know. Losing her mother already was enough to lose Thomas or Catlin now would just be devastating. she could never face the apocalypse by herself. Mira just did not believe she had that kind of strength. it had already taken everything she could muster, to make it to the park.

Suddenly an arm grabbed her by the shoulder and spun her around. Gavin was standing behind her and Laura was right next to him. they both looked at her with their greenish hazed eyes. they said not a word but she understood all to well. Mira was coming with them and their was nothing she could about it. telepathically they spoke to here for a moment all the other voices seem to be drowned out. Mira felt as if it was just the three of them connected. their thoughts were her thoughts, and her thoughts were their thoughts.

They were taking her to the hosiery mill as a hostage. they knew she had warned the others and figured at some point in time she would come in handy. either they would use her to further their conquest of the town. or she would be their ambassador to this world. although they had acquired plenty of information about the earth. their were still many puzzling things about human nature. since Mira was one of the few unique individuals to resist their assimilation. she would be the perfect candidate to bridge the knowledge gap. her resistance would be only for a short period of time, soon she would realize it was pointless. the invasion would soon commence and the earth would be assimilated into the hive. one world one mind and one goal. to continue to spread through the galaxy's acquiring all the knowledge their was.

The main group of soldiers were already breaking down the fortress the town folks had set up at the town hall. it would only be a matter of time until they fully converted all of them. unlike the earthlings the Naru did not need. they received their rest from those in the hive. some Naru were just sleeping pods that gave the rest the energy they needed. all they did in the hive was sleep and receive nourishment's for their host. the people in the town hall would soon succumb to fatigue or lack of food. within the next few days the town would be fully converted and the mother hive would be on its way. they had done this thousands of time. every planet they encountered fell sooner rather than later.

Gavin had already sent orders to the new hatch-lings and some of the converted to find the mob of teens. it would not be long before they to were stopped in their plans of rebellion. Mira cringed at the thought of what the Naru were planning and how meticulous they were going about it. she said another prayer that Thomas would do what he always did and make a way out of no way. if anyone could save them it was him.

been on my mind

I don't usually do this. yet this poem has been running through my mind all week. I want to share it with you guys. I hope it helps bring you closer to the ones you love. if you cant love the one you want. love the one you with. the artist name is Lamont Carey the YouTube video is powerful.


She says she loves me
Like when I wake up in the morning
Shes sitting on the edge of the bed with a plate of food
Wanting to feed me
She says she needs me
She says she loves me
Or like when I'm stepping out of the shower
She's standing there with the towel
wanting to, wanting to dry me off
She says she loves me
So she clings to me even when I want to be left alone
And sometimes I lose control, and I hit her
And she forgives me
Because she says she loves me
Even when the neighbors calling the cops
She's yelling, screaming "no, stop!"
"I fell in the shower, I tripped and hurt myself"
She says she loves me
Or like when her mother tells her to get the restraining order
She's telling her mother that I didn't do nothing wrong
That she made me mad
She says she loves me
Because she's afraid to admit that i'm evil
She's afraid to admit that I hurt her
See if she would admit it
She would have to admit that she has made another dag-gone mistake
Like having four children by four different men
About being 30 years old and not being able to read
So instead of admitting that
She has made another mistake
She stays with me
She says she loves me and I don't know about love
See I was born in an orphanage where the people around me all they wanted to do was get away
So when she says she loves me
I feel something that I can't explain
That I cannot name
So if she says she loves me
I say I love you too
She says she loves me
Like when I lost my job , trying already hard
Trying to arrange this family of six
I hate this
And when I walk in the house I just tell her
Just let me be
Let me get some rest and maybe later we can talk
But she tells me I have things on my mind and I need someone when shes there to listen
And when I try to walk away
She keeps on following me
And so when I walk in the bed room and I try to close the door
She holds it, and I lose control
And I hit her and I hit her again, and I hit her again
Right into the living room
Out into the streets for all eyes to see
And none of you stopping me
But I was showing rage, almost like being dazed
And I kept on hitting her and I kept on hitting her
When her body hits the ground
My feet begin to pound against her flesh
And the only reason that I stop
Is because my hand hurt
And now when I look at my fists
I can't really say whose blood is this?
But by then the rage began to fade
And I begin to see clear
That something is wrong, something ain't right
My baby's convulsing, she's not breathing right
So I kneel down beside her
I wish I could crawl up inside her and heal all the pain that I caused
Because see I know that this is my fault
And she wanted to reach for me but she was just too weak
But she managed to mumble "she loves me"
She says she loves me
And she has loved me until death did us apart

Aim to low

If you don't aim high
Then you've aim to low
Feeling like it's a Cole world
You got people in your life
You feel you don't need
Until they gone
You move on and
Get to know somebody and you learn a lot about 'em
When we long for you, start to doubt 'em
Tell yourself you better off without 'em
Then in time you will find can't walk without 'em
Can't talk without 'em, can't breath without 'em
Came here together, you can't leave without 'em

Growing to your potential
Old folks said
In dire times
God sends you a sign
Whether you heed it or not
Your stars are aligned
Not you just need to plan it out
Love comes and goes
If it's meant to be
Time will tell
Grow for yourself
Rather then others
Looking in the mirror
You'll be proud at what you see

Thousand mile letter

Words that cross the seas
Thoughts that penetrate the soul
A chance to fill the hole
Being dug away like a mole

The broken hearted search the void
Burying the pain with sex and drugs
Running from the pain
Avoiding the harsh realities of the day
Searching for answers
In all the wrong places

Her tonight him tomorrow
Them next Wednesday
Erotic escapades just for the time
Waking up, to the move on
Kissing them thinking
Your still gone

Moving on with the move alongs.
A warm bed to rid your mind
From the cold hearted times
Winters that seem endless
Summer's just not as fun

Holding on to memories
From previous lives
If none of my letters reach you
I hope the feelings in sync
Across the oceans
And Around the globe
The hope is still there

Letter to my fans.3

Thank you guys so much for your support. we have reached 2,000 views on this blog. I could not of done it without, each and everyone one of you. I know the stories have been slowing down. my new novella will be published in September. it will be title a novella for the lionhearted. seeing as this blog as been going for about a year now. I would like to take the time. to express my gratitude for your patience with me. my thankfulness to all of you that bought a copy of the trials and tribulations of gin.  its amazing to be getting love from France, Ukraine, Poland, Ireland Romania, Germany, Lithuania, Spain, Mother Russia and last but not least America,  and all the other places in this world. never in a million years would I think. I would have this kind of support and dedication.

I also want to let you guys know. this novella will be taking my writing to another level. I have an illustrator for this book. i want to give you guys visuals with quality. I want you guys to see the story in your head. not only from the words but with your eyes as well.

If I had it my way the trials and tribulations of gin. would of went in a different way. self publishing is a learning process. i am getting better over time like fine wine. continue to support me and share my work. I don't do it for the fame or the money. I write because its my passion. its my get away from reality. its the only way i can release the thoughts in my head.

I want to become more consistent. more versatile. over the next few months I want to deliver you guys with stories. that will take your breath away. tales that will take you out of your seat and right into the lines. weather they are relate-able or just a fantasy. I want to reach every spectrum of emotions.

I have been looking for an agent. the process is long and full of denies. I am always open to learn about better book query proposals. improving mines could take me farther in the process. editing tips for sentence structuring or even story idea's. I would be happy to take all into consideration. to bring you guys better quality material. I will keep pushing to get the quality of book to you guys. that my fans deserve. again I really appreciate all the love and support. all the shares on your time lines. all the attention from Reddit. I will do my best to keep up weekly. as I get into the final stretch of self publishing this second book. I just want each of you to know. without your support and suggestions. a lot of this wouldn't be possible


Truly yours Matt Linart

Paradox in Paradise the short story

Cliff shined Adam's metal suit, in preparations for the generals coming to see him. Today was going to be his day to really shine. Adam was the first AI to ever be fully functional. For the past ten years cliff had been ridiculed and shunned by the scientific community. Now cliff had his chance to show the world. Robots could be our friends and they were the future. With the sound of the doors down the hall opening. Cliff looked into Adam's green eyes.
"It's time to knock their socks off"
"I have no doubt I will impress them and perform at maximum efficiency."

The general's walked in with straight faces. They filed in and took their seats. Cliff began his presentation. Explaining how Adam will be the first prototype, to launch us into the future. The general's looked on without saying a word. Finally General Radmore stood up.
"All of this scientific mumbo jumbo is all well and good. we want to see what it can do."
"Its name is Adam"
"Let's not get cute here"

Each general was the head of their field from astrology to military tactics. They stepped up one at a time and questioned Adam rigorously. He answered each question as fluid and in depth as any scholar would.  Cliff stood off to the side admiring his creation. He felt like a proud father. Watching his child graduate with his PhD. Cliff reminisced on what it took to get Adam to this point. There were many nights he just wanted to scrap the project. Mornings were he woke up on his keyboard, no closer to solving the glitches in Adam's program then he was the night before. Adam was going to be the first automaton of his time. As responsive as any human cliff ever knew. He took his own brain patterns and integrated it into Adam's program.

Adam held every human emotion, making his reasoning even more sound then most humans cliff knew. He was verse in every philosophy from Plato to Kant. Every religion from Agnostic to Zoroastrian. Along with his own restraints towards humankind. Trained in every martial art from Capoeira to basic karate. Adam was even verse in most old school to classic dance moves and jokes. Cliff never had kids he never even married. It wasn't as if he didn't want any of those things. He was just always so consumed in his work, that they never came along or happened. Adam was his chance to make the perfect child and friend. His musical talents many nights wowed and left his colleagues in awe. Cliff had made Adam perfect in every sense of the word.

Adam had the cardinal rules implanted in him. He could not harm a human. Adam had to adhere to every command given to him by a human that didn't break any laws or was immoral. Finally he could never deviate from the first two laws. These rules were to made to protect Adam from the evils of man and also for himself. Although he was smart many basic human things still went over his head. Such sarcasm and other behavioral cues. Although he was an advanced lifestyle. Adam was still a child growing up in many ways. Cliff wanted him to be an asset to the world not a weapon or tool for crime. As the months and years past Adam grew his own thoughts on many things. Cliff wanted to make sure Adam remained true to his design and hold his purity. Now watching the generals leave the room to go into their own private discussion. Cliff felt like he had accomplished his dream. He walked over to Adam to check on him.

"How do you think I did dad"
"I think you did fine"
"The general's body cues seem as if they came for more than an examination"
"Explain"
"There pulses rose the deeper into the questioning we went. Many of them even shouted signs of fear or anxiety."
"That is natural humans, are always anxious about new things they don't fully understand. You will get that a lot as people are introduced to you. Don’t take it personal."
"Ok father"


The general's congregated in a room down the hall. A soldier came to the examination room and signaled for cliff to follow him. Cliff fixed his hair and have Adam a thumbs up. Cliff did as he was told and followed the soldier. Adam sat on his examination table alone with all the other machines. Opening his ear slots two small receivers popped out and rotated accordingly. He tuned in his audio frequency to the room they were in. Adam knew snooping was wrong. Yet the curiosity in him convinced him there was no harm in it. Adam listened intensely at the conversation. Cliff began to yell at the generals. Even cursing at them which Adam had never heard from him before. Then the slamming of the conference room door let him know they were done. Adam pulled his receiver back into his head and sat patiently. Cliff walked back into the room looking flustered. He looked at Adam with sorrow and anger in his eyes. Adam checked his vitals as cliff paced around the room angrily.

"Is everything ok dad"
"Yes everything is fine. Don’t you worry about anything"
"Father you are lying. Your vitals are showing signs of distress and anger...you told me lying is wrong."
"It is and I'm sorry I just didn't want to worry you"
"Is that another human trait I must master, systematic dishonesty?"
"Hopefully not Adam....I'm going to put you into your sleep mode....well talk about this later ok...”
"Yes father"


Adam already knew what was bothering his father. The generals had deemed him a national security risk. They were shutting down the project and shipping him to a secured facility. He didn't think thigh it was the time to ours the issue. Adam laid down on his table and prepared to enter his sleep mode. With a deep sigh cliff entered the code into the program. Adam shut down. With a sigh cliff ran his hand over his head.

Hours later cliff find himself in a bar finishing his shot of scotch. He signaled for the bartender to bring another. It had been years since he could remember drinking this much. Cliff grabbed drunkenly for more peanuts. His fingers only got the bottom crumbs in the basket. The bartender brought his shot and came with a new basket of peanuts.


"I think you have had enough"
"I'll tell you when I've had enough. You just keep bringing me shots."
"That's it your cut off. I'm closing your tab"
"You and everyone else just feel they can stop me from attaining my goals"


Cliff got up and slapped the bucket of peanuts off the counter. He rummaged through his suits jacket pocket for his wallet. Pulling out a hundred he threw it at the yelling bartender. Walking towards the exit he watched as everyone was looking at him. Cliff paid then no attention and pushed open the door to the street. Stumbling down the street he really began to feel the effects of the shots. Fumbling through his pants pockets cliff looked for his car keys. Finding his car keys he gripped them tightly. His car was a few blocks away from the bar. The idea of them taking Adam away from him grew his rage more. Cliff finally made it to his car, he got in and pulled off into the night. Doing ninety mph he headed straight towards the lab.

Within the hour cliff was stumbling towards Adam. He sat at his computer and, began typing in the codes to activate Adam.  Adam sat up immediately once he pressed enter on the computer. The soldiers also ran to the lab doors. Cliff quickly typed in the code to lock the doors. The soldiers banged on the door, while one of them ran back down the hall. Cliff figured he went to alert his supervisor. Estimating he had a minute or two before they unlocked the door. He ran over to Adam and began entering the sequence in his computer to get the wires off him.

"Father what is going on?"
"They are trying to lock you away. I can't let that happen. We don't have time to explain you have to go."
"Go where father? Are you not coming?"
"I doubt that Adam but you can be free, please enough questions get ready to run"


The soldiers that ran down the hall came back. The sirens on the lab base were going off now. He said something to the other soldiers and they drew their ak-47. They opened fire on the glass cracking it slowly bullet after bullet. By the time Adam stood up off the table, the glass fully shattered and the soldiers were stepping through it.


"You are under arrest for treason. Stop or we will be forced to use force."
"Run Adam run"


Confused but having to be obedient. Adam looked to the vents above the lab. Cliff jumped in front of him as the soldiers opened fire. Shots filled Cliff's body as he protected Adam. Seeing his father fall Adam jumped around him and attacked the soldiers. He broke one gun and punched the other. The final soldier unloaded his gun into Adam. Who in return kicked him back into the hall way wall knocking him unconscious? Adam ran back over to cliff who was covered in blood. He scanned him and see his vitals slowly fading. Cliff opened his eyes and reached up to touch Adam's face. His bloody hand tainted Adam's metal red.


"You have to go, more will come"

"I'm not leaving you father"
"You must I've worked too hard to see you used as a weapon. Your hurt Adam"
"I don't understand father."
"I love you, you’re the child I never had now Go Adam and don't let them catch you!"


Cliff took his last breath and died in Adam's arms. Hearing the foot soldiers of more soldiers coming. Adam listened and laid Cliff down. He jumped up into the vent system and quickly crawled through it. Within minutes Adam was standing fifty feet on the base. Looking out toward a world that was unfamiliar and cold to him. Before he could think of the next place to go a helicopter circled in front of him. It shined its spot light directly on him. The pilot told him to stay right where he was through the speakers. Adam searched desperately for a way to get out the situation. He took a couple steps to his left on the thin ledge. The pilot opened fire on his feet making Adam jump back. He didn't want to hurt them but he had to escape.


Adam looked behind him and saw the vent door that he bust open hanging on its hinges. He grabbed it up and calculated where he could hit the helicopter, without killing the pilot and crew. His sensors picked up the back rotor as the safest place. With a flick of the wrist he sent the vent flying towards the helicopter. It hit perfectly and the helicopter backed up as the pilot tried to gain control. Adam jumped down from the ledge free falling about 100 ft. He landed hard on the ground and started running. Sirens blared all around the compound. Spot lights went up scanning the area. Adam made it to the gates of the compound and ripped a hole in it. He quickly went through and just ran. Where he was headed he wasn't quite sure yet he just knew he had to get away and be as far from their as he could.

Scanning the area he found a mountain range 30 miles away. Figuring that would be the safest place to regroup. He plotted the fastest course there. Jumping over hedges and small creeks. He made his way through the woods surrounding the compound. Coming to an eight lane highway. Adam calculated the best time to run across. Sprinting toward the median he dodged cars and trucks. They honked as they barely hit him. Finally getting to the median Adam took a second to take in the scene. Zooming into cars and looking at the people looking back at him. A small white boy looked at him in amazement as they drive past. Adam waved then jumped into traffic running toward the wall on the other side of the highway.

The wall was about ten feet tall. Adam briskly dug his hands into it and scaled the wall. Continuing to run through the woods on the other side of it. The sound of helicopters filled the air. He slowed down to access their distance. They shined a light into the woods, searching for him. Adam picked up his pace, knowing it wouldn't be hard for them to pin point him. The mountain base was only ten miles away. If he made it their Adam knew it would be safe there. The rocks would make it hard to find him. Finally arriving at the mountain base. Adam began to climb he could see the copters closing in on him. Ground troops were not too far from them. He climbed to a ridge and went inside a small cave. It didn't go as deep as he was expecting so he backed out. Trying to stay out the visual of the army coming for him.

Adam scaled the side of the mountain and got to the top. There was a deep cavern at the top, Adam jumped down and landed deep inside the mountain. He ventured into the cavern and turned on his built in spot lights. Bats awake and flew out the cave up into the night sky. He sat in that cavern alone thinking about everything that happened. For the next two weeks Adam just sat and waited until he thought it was safe to venture out. The Amazon was his only safe haven he figured. It was not populated and would allow him to be at peace. This world was not ready for him yet, maybe one day in the future he would be accepted.

Adam calculated from his position in New Mexico it would be 2890 miles to Columbia. There he would be able to enter the rainforest and trek deeper into it. Getting as far away from humanity as he possibly could. With more calculations he estimated it to take him five hundred hours to get there. Which would take him about 20 days or so. By the end of the month Adam had found a new cave deep with the rain forest. He finally got to a chance to just relax. After his long journey his suit was covered in mud and filth. Finding a waterfall not too far he washed himself. Even though he didn't know what a bath felt like. It felt refreshing to him to see himself all shiny again. Now it was time to head back to his cave and give himself some much needed repairs.

Along the way Adam had looted some tech stores and junk yards. Getting parts and metal scraps he would need to fix himself. The concept of stealing was wrong to him but the survival instinct outweighed it. He had no one he could turn to for help. Now he was all alone in the world. Over the next few days Adam fixed himself up good as new. The sound of children laughing and running towards him, awoke Adam one morning. Their footsteps drew closer to him. He stood up and ventured out his cave. They were playing by the waterfall just having fun. It had been so long since he actually had saw real people. Adam stood and just watched.

On the other side of the river Adam saw a crocodile slide into the water. The village kids played happily in the water. Adam hesitated at first, not wanting to give his position off. The crocodile slowly swam closer to the kids. Adam jumped from his cave entrance. Landed hard on the floor and took off toward the lake. The kids stopped playing and just watched Adam in shock.
Adam jumped toward the river. The crocodile lunged at the village boy, with a swift punch Adam knocked the crocodile right in its jaw. It flew out the water about 20ft, then slowly swam away looking in pain.  The kids had already ran away, by the time Adam checked for them. He went back to his cave questioning if he did the right thing. By night fall the sound of drums and chants filled the woods. Adam walked out the entrance of his cave once again. Within moments the men of the village. Along with the child he saved returned. Adam tried to decipher the language.it was not in any of his codec. He stood wondering if he would have to flee or fight for his life.

Adam stepped forward and increased his outward luminosity input. The bright light blinded many of the village people. Forcing them to cover their eyes. After a few seconds and he had calculated a means of escape. Adam reset his visual lens to their normal setting. He waited to see what the villagers would do. For the first time since he arrived, the jungle was quiet. Not even the toads budged. Finally a village women and her son came forward. It was the same boy that he had saved earlier. They slowly climbed the hill. Adam and the other villagers looked on, as they made their way up the hill.

Finally they touched the cave peak of the entrance. Adam thought to go help them up yet resisted not knowing their intentions. The boy got up first and helped his mother up the rest of the way. The mother kissed her son and then looked back toward the villagers. She turned and grabbed her son's hand. They walked about five ft. from Adam. The women began to pull a cloth from her waist. Her and her son bowed down before Adam. The women unwrapped the cloth and presented to him. Inside the cloth was cooked crocodile meat, and a necklace made from the teeth. They kept reciting the same sentence.

Using his various language software's Adam began to piece together their tongue. He understood now the woman was thanking him for saving her son. Adam spoke in their tongue.


"You are welcome. I just want to be left alone"
The women looked up surprised to hear him speak. She stood up and fully looked at Adam in the night. The women took steps closer to him. Her son grabbed her foot, but the woman kicked it away. Adam stood solid as a stone accessing her as no threat. He was intrigued to see what she was going to do.
The women touched Adam's face and pulled her hand back quick. Adam knew it was something she had never seen before. Her vitals were rising in a sort of panic. The women once again touched his face. Then grabbed his metal hand and touched her face. Adam watched as her vitals became calm and almost soothed. He didn't know what to make of it.
The women looked into Adam's eyes.
"We are throwing you a celebration tomorrow in honor of your bravery will you come. Metal man from the mountain."
"I just want to be left alone"
"You don't have to be afraid. We have never seen a god and want to praise you."
"I am no God and I want to be left alone. Please go"
The women released his hand and backed away.
"Tito" she said

Her son immediately got up and followed. They made their way back down the mountain. Adam took up the pouch and closed it back. He slowly walked back into his cave.

As the months go by Adam becomes very close with the villagers. The women he grew to know as Sava. He learned that her husband was killed by a crocodile. She had been praying the god protect her son. Sava had come to believe Adam was sent by the gods to protect Tito. Adam tried many times to explain his origins. Yet Sava could not be swayed. Adam grew fond of Sava and Tito. Over the years he watched them grow. Protecting them and the villagers. He helped the villagers build more structural sound housing. Build irrigation paths for the vegetation. Adam had changed the way the villagers lived and say the world. The villagers had also changed the way Adam looked at humanity.

Although Adam could never have companionship. He began to long to have what the other villagers had. A mate and a child. Months of sleeping with Sava and the other villagers. Made began to make him feel for a family of his own.to have another not only as an equal but as a life mate.
The mortality of humans was inevitable. Adam wanted to have someone that would be around forever like he would.one morning Adam left the village and set out toward civilization. Over the next few weeks Adam made multiple trips out. He became a recluse in his cave. working on building the happiness he longed for.

Months passed and Adam finally presented his mate Evelyn to the village. He had made improvements to his own design. Making Evelyn smarter and tougher then he was. Using some of his own processors, and adapting it to new ones. She was the perfect woman and life mate.
Using his knowledge of women. He crafted her soft and gentle. Her metallic skin was even smoother than his. Her body frame was half his size. Yet Evelyn could lift the same amount of weight he could, if not more. Adam customized every inch of her to be perfectly balanced. With the upgraded processors. What had taken Adam months to understand, had only taken Evelyn weeks.
The villagers welcomed Evelyn as they did Adam. Over the years Evelyn grew the same longing that Adam once had. She wanted a family just as all the other villagers had. Evelyn grew a secret hatred from them. The humans could just multiply as they wanted. She and Adam had to go steal and forge for their kind.
Evelyn nagged Adam for months about a child. If it wasn't a gender, it was a name. His life mate even argued build types.
She brought all these to him and finally Adam agreed. Once again Adam left the village and secluded to his cave. This time though he had Evelyn with him.
They finally presented their son to the villagers. "Canaan" was what they called him.it meant blessed one in the village tongue. The villagers welcomed Canaan as they welcomed Adam. Yet still that wasn't enough for Evelyn. She watched how Adam treated Tito and his children. How he acted with Sava, who was now much elderly. Evelyn's hatred for the humans slowly grew.
She watched how feeble they were. Relished in the fact they looked at her as a God. Which they should of in her mind. They were like bugs just destroying the earth. Evelyn felt as if Adam loved them more then he loved her. The feeling festered in her brain.
One day when Adam went hunting with a few of the village men. Evelyn realized she could take no more. A fire broke out in the village.as the woman and children ran to try and out it. Evelyn begin killing them with her bare hands. By the time Adam and the village men returned. Half the village was already burned away. Evelyn stood amongst the fire watching the villager’s body’s burn.
"What are you doing Evelyn?"
"You treat these humans better then you treat me or your son. They are ruining our eternal happiness. It's time to purge them and make way for our kind."
"You must stop. This is madness, we will always be together. A human life is precious and limited."
"You see that's where you’re wrong. They are hateful and destructive. They lack progression and insight. We are the next form of evolution. It's time we take charge and build our own legacy. No more hiding, no more living in fear. It's time for us to rise up and rule."
Adam jumped into the fire where Evelyn was. He had heard enough, one of her processors must have fried. Not installing the 3 rules into her programming was a mistake. He looked at his son, would he to also side with his mother. since he had the freedom to choose. No rules restricting him from violence and genocide.
Evelyn swung a rod smashing him in the face. Adam quickly jumped back and accessed the situation. This was what his father Cliff had feared. A robot that would find humans obsolete and in need of exterminating. Adam and Evelyn fought amongst the fire as the village men and Canaan watched on. As they struggled Adam feared he would have to destroy Evelyn. His perfect mate, the life partner he made now turned on him.
Adam grabbed her and tightened his grip around her neck. He crushed Evelyn's face plate with two hard blows to it. She rolled him over and broke his neck. Evelyn pulled Adam's head unit off his body. She threw it at the feet off her son. Canaan looked at Adams severed head. The wires that connected to his body laid oozing oil, His eye units were black and motionless.
"That it's what happens when you are weak son. That it's what happens when you choose them over me. You understand what has to be done right?"
"Yes mother"
Canaan turned to the rest of villagers. He began to kill as many as he could. The rest he hunted down in the forest. Evelyn stayed in the village. She laughed as the rest of it burned down. Picking up Adams head and looking into his eyes. Evelyn said
"We could have been together forever. All you had to do with agree. We could have shaped this world in our own image. Now I'll shape it, to what you should have seen it as."