Her strength pt2

I've been writing more
Yet lately
It's about things that actually matter
In my letters
I've raised points that were valid
I never meant too
Throw us further off balance
Every page and every song
I gave it my all
In hopes one day
You'll treat me like a human
Stop going through third parties
Pick up the phone and just call
I've sucked up my pride too many times
Would it kill you to just try once?

I miss your brown eyes
I regret not praying
With you at night
Like I tend to do now
I'm sorry for taking you for granted
I just figured you would always be there
Kitty Kat we would leave
Steak and shake
Laughing and giggling
We would Borrow the Tonka toy
To lay up in parking lots
Exposing our nudity to the world
With our bodies entwined
Not caring about the consequences
Of our trespassing and fornication

We were broke back then
Sharing your burgers for lunch
I miss showering with you
Wiping your body down
From head to toe
Not missing a nook or cranny
You would call me daddy
Before you went and met your daddy
Over two hundred poems
Written all in your name
Two books dedicated to your smile
That touch that moved my soul
The one girl who truly
Made me feel whole
Who only asked for the real me
Who I denied night after night

Uttering your name
Gives my mouth a foul taste
I was once happy
That we got our space
Now I can't identify my race
I feel trapped in this place
Everywhere I see your face
From what I was
To what I am
I shouldn't feel like a disgrace
I've loved and made mistakes
Yet I still love you
To this day

The music

my only escape
From this cold world
Plays from my headphones
Sometimes from my speakers
At full blast
Just to drown out reality

Tunes play over and over
Engulfing me in their lyrics
Wrapping me up tight
Giving me Lullabies at night
Making everything feel right
Especially when it's all wrong

My boss is an asshole
Perfect circle calms my soul
My car broke down again
Eminem builds up my hopes
My Bills are behind and
I can't see the sun shine
Slipknot got me punching the air
Stomping over my neighbors head

Lyrics keep filling my brain
Ridding me of my pain
Bringing joy to the mundane
Giving me something to attain
In this life Im trying to sustain
As I push on another day
The music makes me feel whole

Scarfing

The lights are off
My computer screen is on
My favorite scarf hangs from my chair
I've waited for this moment all day
To be alone with my fantasies

She moans and I moan
Her pleasure gives me shivers
As he thrust inside filling her hole
I realize the void in my soul
The lost feeling of completion
That every night goes untold
Every day I have to put on hold

I feel the cotton
Rub on my bare skin
Rising my anticipation
Calling to me
Like a siren in the sea
Wanting to hold me

My passion has peaked
So my scarf I seek
Pleasure and pain
Have engulfed my brain
Am I insane?

Inside my closet
My trusty pole awaits
Waiting for my scarfs
Warm embrace
Now the trifecta begins

The cotton grips my neck
It comforts me
As the pole takes my weight
I slowly slip into euphoria
As I begin the final ritual
My climax nears its completion

Those final strokes
Tightens my scarf
As I release my soul
Floating to paradise
Leaving this world
Transcending to another

Now I feel whole
Now I can view the world
I've seen things untold
In those wee seconds
That I let my soul go
From this taboo hold